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Being Happy….

“I’ve realized that being happy is a choice. You never want to rub anybody the wrong way or not be fun to be around, but you have to be happy. When I get logical and I don’t trust my instincts - Thats when I get in trouble.”


-Angelina Jolie

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The Easy Way Out….

The easy way out is the path that requires the least amount of hard work.

It’s the path that doesn’t cause you to grow when you could.

It’s the path that is free of challenges and adversity

It’s the path that is free of uncertainty (although this is just a myth since nothing is certain)

It’s the path that nobody will ridicule you for

It’s the path where you haven’t put that much on the line

It’s the path where you’ll never find out what you’re truly made of.

It’s the path where you’ll never be living life on an unpaved road to find beauty at its end

It’s the path where you play it safe, don’t take risks, and settle for small rewards

It’s the path that’s somewhat free of failure

It’s the path free of the renegades and mavericks who will ultimately stretch you beyond where you are at today.

It’s the path where you might be creating a life you’ll eventually want to escape.

It’s the path that most people take and it produces conventional results

In our darkest hours, we’ll always be tempted to take the easy way out.  But if we believe that there’s a light at the end of a tunnel, we’ll find a way to weather the storm, get our shit together, and go the whole nine yards. So I’m not taking the easy way out for now.

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Highly Sensitive People…..

When you get into an argument with someone, and your intention was NEVER to hurt them in any way and you didnt think it would get them super upset because it was so petty, there’s something really deep within that person that’s hurting them, and all you did was lift that little switch that reminded them about something they been feelin inside, that made them go insane at that point in time…..Its crazy how you gotta be so careful with some people because there are some out there who are super sensitive to everything you say to them, that they’ll get extreemely offended if you counter their views. Due to the fact that really sensitive people process and reflect upon incoming information on such a deeper level, they are more likely to become over stimulated and overwhelmed and react different to things than a person who isn’t as sensitive as them, which can cause a really big argument. Highly sensitive people sometimes need a day or two in order to have enough time to process everything fully, and really think about it and come up with a better response. It’s so annoying sometimes dealin with this b/s but wutever

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It’s Just Love…

I was talkin to my man’s older brother yesterday and we just spent like 40 mins talkin about why things are the way they are, his life, my life, and things that are important that people usually never take the time to think about, because they’re just worried about other things. He told me, “you’re very different….and that’s why my brother loves you so much. whatever your parents did, real shit WHATEVER they did, they did an incredible job….” It made me think about my last text post on here the other day…..about how different i always feel….. He said, “you see how you’re always here? that doesn’t happen like that with anybody else. My brother trust you and if you don’t already know that then just know that he tells me all the time……i can count on one hand how many people are married in my family because theres prolly only about 2 or 3…….i think you’re the one…and my brother has never wanted to get married with no other female because we’ve seen so much shit out here in these streets, im basically all he got to look up to. His dad left when he was so young and just imagine, how would marriage have ever come to his mind when im not even married and he looks up to a lot of shit that i do, I’m his example…..I’ve never heard him say “I love this girl” like he says when he talks about you….never….the only girl he was close to feelin sum sorta love for was his babymother but nothing compared to the way he loves you, not even close….even if he mad as fuck or he messes up just let him breathe, let him chill, give him time to think, because you have his heart and believe me you’re not going anywhere…..” When I heard that it made me feel so many things at one time because one of his friends told me the same thing the other day when he saw me working on the computer…….

In a relationship it takes a lot to make it last……and what people dont understand is you can’t expect to be with someone for years, and years, and years and for them to never disappoint you in some way because nobody is perfect. There’s gonna be days when you want to just throw them against a wall cus they may piss you off and then there are other days where it’s the complete opposite. We been through hella shit together, I’m just grateful that even after all this crazy shit we’ve experienced that we’re at a place right now where we can both be real honest with each other about everything that’s already happened. A lot of it wasnt great, and a lot of it wasn’t bad but it was good to know he could tell me just so we can move forward. I don’t like to force him to do anything he doesn’t want to do, and tell him you can do this, or you can’t do that….because love doesn’t work that way. When you care about someone a lot you give them there right to choose and to just be who they are because they’ll love you more for that and will try harder to be better because you’re not trying to keep them contained in this box. 

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“He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can. He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect for more than he can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you.”

-Bob Marley

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Just Different…

All my life I’ve felt different. Almost special. Like I can do things and understand things that other people can’t. I feel like there has always been something different about me I just don’t understand and can’t explain, and other people see it in me too. I’ve always wanted to make a difference to someone. I want to make an impact. Change the world somehow. Maybe not the whole world, but the world of somebody. I feel like I was born with the ability to change something or do something important. I don’t know what it is, but I feel so disconnected and different than everyone else. I have this amazing ability to notice the unnoticeable. Observe the most insignificant of details, and focus on something like you would never think possible.  I just feel so overly aware of absolutely everything. And I can read emotions off of someone’s face like a book. It’s almost like a game sometimes. My brain is always going and it never shuts off. It’s always thinking about how to do things differently than how something is working right now, or always trying to figure out what the other person is thinking. By looking at someone’s face, I feel like I can almost read there thoughts based on their composure. It’s weird. I’ve always been like that. I think that’s where my anxiety stems from. I’m fully aware of when my presence isn’t wanted, or someone is in a bad mood but I don’t know why. Social anxiety disorder. I really think my skills in reading other people is a bigger obstacle than it is an asset. Maybe this all sounds completely crazy. I think that sometimes. That other people must think I’m completely nuts. That frustrates me cus I’m actually not crazy at all. I’m always just calm and very down to Earth.

I don’t want my life to go to waste. I want to find my purpose. I need to. In order for me to feel important, or like I’m not just wasting a life, I need to be able to do something important. I don’t want to do insignificant things. I don’t want to work at some bakery and serve people coffee and bagels like a lot of ppl do just to get a check at the end of the week, because I have bigger dreams. Yeah, I’m still young and have “the whole rest of my life ahead of me”, but what if I don’t? What if my life ended tomorrow, or next week, or 3 years from now? What will my life have meant? Who will I have affected? Was I just a waste of space and resources?

Maybe I’m not different or special, but I’m at least a hell of a lot more aware of myself and social cues than anyone I know. I get overwhelmed with details sometimes. Like I have to try to remember everything about a new room I walk into, and every feature on a new person I meet. It gets frustrating when I can’t absorb everything. My mom notices that about me. She sees how whenever we go into a new area, my eyes are darting everywhere and my brain is going a million miles an hour. I don’t know why I do it. I think it just helps me understand more about the world. Why things are the way they are. Why people do certain things. I’m always that person that has to know why things are the way they are. I hate not knowing, but I hate not understanding more. If I don’t understand something, I’ll ask a million questions and read about it until I do.

alana

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Unconditional Love For You….

I think its hard to describe love…….and im talking about pure unconditional love rather than imitation love which i dont think totally makes you feel happy on a soul level -like praise, power, or pleasure cus these are never stable in this material world. Until you are not feeling complete and whole as a person within yourself, until you don’t accept yourself and love yourself fully you will look for someone to COMPLETE you and possibly (not always) be dissapointed. Unconditional love can be translated to real love. This is when you genuinely care about someone else’s happiness. And real love is not defined by just physical touch like the kisses, hugs, sex, more sex, etc. Unconditional Love is about accepting the very truth of someone with ‘no condition’.

Conditional love says “i’ll love you if you do x,y,z and if you are a,b, and c.” Whereas Unconditional love says i will always love you no matter what you look like, how educated you are, how rich or poor you are etc and even though i sometimes dont agree with everything you say ima always stick by you cus i care about you.

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Random Thought….

i think kim k is gorgeous but she looks sloppy and just………. i dunno now that she’s pregnant. Amber Rose stayed gorgeous EVEN when she was pregnant. 

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