“I’ve realized that being happy is a choice. You never want to rub anybody the wrong way or not be fun to be around, but you have to be happy. When I get logical and I don’t trust my instincts - Thats when I get in trouble.”
The easy way out is the path that requires the least amount of hard work.
It’s the path that doesn’t cause you to grow when you could.
It’s the path that is free of challenges and adversity
It’s the path that is free of uncertainty (although this is just a myth since nothing is certain)
It’s the path that nobody will ridicule you for
It’s the path where you haven’t put that much on the line
It’s the path where you’ll never find out what you’re truly made of.
It’s the path where you’ll never be living life on an unpaved road to find beauty at its end
It’s the path where you play it safe, don’t take risks, and settle for small rewards
It’s the path that’s somewhat free of failure
It’s the path free of the renegades and mavericks who will ultimately stretch you beyond where you are at today.
It’s the path where you might be creating a life you’ll eventually want to escape.
It’s the path that most people take and it produces conventional results
In our darkest hours, we’ll always be tempted to take the easy way out. But if we believe that there’s a light at the end of a tunnel, we’ll find a way to weather the storm, get our shit together, and go the whole nine yards. So I’m not taking the easy way out for now.
When you get into an argument with someone, and your intention was NEVER to hurt them in any way and you didnt think it would get them super upset because it was so petty, there’s something really deep within that person that’s hurting them, and all you did was lift that little switch that reminded them about something they been feelin inside, that made them go insane at that point in time…..Its crazy how you gotta be so careful with some people because there are some out there who are super sensitive to everything you say to them, that they’ll get extreemely offended if you counter their views. Due to the fact that really sensitive people process and reflect upon incoming information on such a deeper level, they are more likely to become over stimulated and overwhelmed and react different to things than a person who isn’t as sensitive as them, which can cause a really big argument. Highly sensitive people sometimes need a day or two in order to have enough time to process everything fully, and really think about it and come up with a better response. It’s so annoying sometimes dealin with this b/s but wutever
I was talkin to my man’s older brother yesterday and we just spent like 40 mins talkin about why things are the way they are, his life, my life, and things that are important that people usually never take the time to think about, because they’re just worried about other things. He told me, “you’re very different….and that’s why my brother loves you so much. whatever your parents did, real shit WHATEVER they did, they did an incredible job….” It made me think about my last text post on here the other day…..about how different i always feel….. He said, “you see how you’re always here? that doesn’t happen like that with anybody else. My brother trust you and if you don’t already know that then just know that he tells me all the time……i can count on one hand how many people are married in my family because theres prolly only about 2 or 3…….i think you’re the one…and my brother has never wanted to get married with no other female because we’ve seen so much shit out here in these streets, im basically all he got to look up to. His dad left when he was so young and just imagine, how would marriage have ever come to his mind when im not even married and he looks up to a lot of shit that i do, I’m his example…..I’ve never heard him say “I love this girl” like he says when he talks about you….never….the only girl he was close to feelin sum sorta love for was his babymother but nothing compared to the way he loves you, not even close….even if he mad as fuck or he messes up just let him breathe, let him chill, give him time to think, because you have his heart and believe me you’re not going anywhere…..” When I heard that it made me feel so many things at one time because one of his friends told me the same thing the other day when he saw me working on the computer…….
In a relationship it takes a lot to make it last……and what people dont understand is you can’t expect to be with someone for years, and years, and years and for them to never disappoint you in some way because nobody is perfect. There’s gonna be days when you want to just throw them against a wall cus they may piss you off and then there are other days where it’s the complete opposite. We been through hella shit together, I’m just grateful that even after all this crazy shit we’ve experienced that we’re at a place right now where we can both be real honest with each other about everything that’s already happened. A lot of it wasnt great, and a lot of it wasn’t bad but it was good to know he could tell me just so we can move forward. I don’t like to force him to do anything he doesn’t want to do, and tell him you can do this, or you can’t do that….because love doesn’t work that way. When you care about someone a lot you give them there right to choose and to just be who they are because they’ll love you more for that and will try harder to be better because you’re not trying to keep them contained in this box.
All my life I’ve felt different. Almost special. Like I can do things and understand things that other people can’t. I feel like there has always been something different about me I just don’t understand and can’t explain, and other people see it in me too. I’ve always wanted to make a difference to someone. I want to make an impact. Change the world somehow. Maybe not the whole world, but the world of somebody. I feel like I was born with the ability to change something or do something important. I don’t know what it is, but I feel so disconnected and different than everyone else. I have this amazing ability to notice the unnoticeable. Observe the most insignificant of details, and focus on something like you would never think possible. I just feel so overly aware of absolutely everything. And I can read emotions off of someone’s face like a book. It’s almost like a game sometimes. My brain is always going and it never shuts off. It’s always thinking about how to do things differently than how something is working right now, or always trying to figure out what the other person is thinking. By looking at someone’s face, I feel like I can almost read there thoughts based on their composure. It’s weird. I’ve always been like that. I think that’s where my anxiety stems from. I’m fully aware of when my presence isn’t wanted, or someone is in a bad mood but I don’t know why. Social anxiety disorder. I really think my skills in reading other people is a bigger obstacle than it is an asset. Maybe this all sounds completely crazy. I think that sometimes. That other people must think I’m completely nuts. That frustrates me cus I’m actually not crazy at all. I’m always just calm and very down to Earth.
I don’t want my life to go to waste. I want to find my purpose. I need to. In order for me to feel important, or like I’m not just wasting a life, I need to be able to do something important. I don’t want to do insignificant things. I don’t want to work at some bakery and serve people coffee and bagels like a lot of ppl do just to get a check at the end of the week, because I have bigger dreams. Yeah, I’m still young and have “the whole rest of my life ahead of me”, but what if I don’t? What if my life ended tomorrow, or next week, or 3 years from now? What will my life have meant? Who will I have affected? Was I just a waste of space and resources?
Maybe I’m not different or special, but I’m at least a hell of a lot more aware of myself and social cues than anyone I know. I get overwhelmed with details sometimes. Like I have to try to remember everything about a new room I walk into, and every feature on a new person I meet. It gets frustrating when I can’t absorb everything. My mom notices that about me. She sees how whenever we go into a new area, my eyes are darting everywhere and my brain is going a million miles an hour. I don’t know why I do it. I think it just helps me understand more about the world. Why things are the way they are. Why people do certain things. I’m always that person that has to know why things are the way they are. I hate not knowing, but I hate not understanding more. If I don’t understand something, I’ll ask a million questions and read about it until I do.
I think its hard to describe love…….and im talking about pure unconditional love rather than imitation love which i dont think totally makes you feel happy on a soul level -like praise, power, or pleasure cus these are never stable in this material world. Until you are not feeling complete and whole as a person within yourself, until you don’t accept yourself and love yourself fully you will look for someone to COMPLETE you and possibly (not always) be dissapointed. Unconditional love can be translated to real love. This is when you genuinely care about someone else’s happiness. And real love is not defined by just physical touch like the kisses, hugs, sex, more sex, etc. Unconditional Love is about accepting the very truth of someone with ‘no condition’.
Conditional love says “i’ll love you if you do x,y,z and if you are a,b, and c.” Whereas Unconditional love says i will always love you no matter what you look like, how educated you are, how rich or poor you are etc and even though i sometimes dont agree with everything you say ima always stick by you cus i care about you.
Every major failure in life whether it’s related to love, health, money, or anything else….every major failure is the result of a lot of little failures along the way that were never attended to. Little failures add up if you let them……..don’t let them.
They basically try to FUCK wit people’s minds when times are really hard and theres a lot of economic stress or w/e, so they do everything they can to put all these great things in peoples head about what they can do to make this world we live in better for us when times are really difficult which removes opposition, and they put this tactic on the minds of the ppl to gain popular support when their actually enslaving us. what does this mean? it basically means like everything the government does they try to make the people FEEL like they’re helping us or making things easier for us, when they’re actually not. For example, the september 11 attack was supposively “a terrorist attack” but many have reason to believe that it was actually the U.S who did this attack on us PURPOSELY just so they have a REASON to add all this extra security to keep track on us like at the airports or on the streets taking pictures when u pass the traffic lights, all this other unnecessary ass shit so they can keep tabs on everyone. & its crazy cus there are ppl out their who are really that blind and STILL don’t see that shit. I don’t trust none of these muthafuckas. All ur fancy, cool new phones, with tracking devices to supposively “help you” when someone steals your phone…BULLSHIT tracking YOU. all these “add your location” things on social sites, tracking you. On top of everything else the U.S has this new shit for passports the same as a regular passport except it got a RFID computer chip embedded in it. RFID stands for “radio-frequency identification” Passports with RFID chips store an electronic copy of the passport information: your name, a digitized picture, etc. And in the future, the chip might store fingerprints or digital visas from various countries. By itself, this is no problem. But RFID chips don’t have to be plugged in to a reader to operate. Like the chips used for automatic toll collection on roads or automatic fare collection on subways, these chips operate via proximity. The risk to you is the possibility of surreptitious access: Your passport information might be read without your knowledge or consent by a government trying to track your every movement, a criminal trying to steal your identity or someone just curious about your citizenship. OPEN YOUR EYES & just understand not everything is what they make you believe it is.
The struggle to do good stems from the two conflicting things in every human being. A person has two hearts: one that loves to do the right thing, and one that prefers to be selfish. You need to develop an awareness of the struggle going on inside you. For example:
• You want to use your time effectively, vs. you feel like procrastinating.
• You want to eat healthily, vs. you feel like chocolate cake.
• You want wisdom, vs. you feel like watching TV.
One heart loves to do the right thing. The other prefers to be selfish.
“Want” is for permanence. It is rooted in reality. “Desire” is for the moment, with little regard for future consequence. It is an escape.
This conflict is between your body and your soul. Your eternal soul seeks permanence. It wants to do all the right things: to love humanity, seek justice, be altruistic, sensible, honorable and responsible. Your soul strives to fulfill its potential.
Meanwhile, your body, which is destined for the grave, seeks satisfaction for the moment. Drawn by comfort and effortlessness, it wants to eat, to sleep, to lust.
You know it’s not right to refuse to take out the garbage, and your heart really wants to be good. But your other heart, the heart of desire, would rather stay inside where it’s warm, reading a book in comfort.
Even as you’re reading this, your soul is nudging you: “Pay attention – this will make me great!” But your body contradicts: “All this hard work and concentration is too painful. I was doing just fine the way I was before!”
With every decision, the two hearts clash and create a dilemma. To be triumphant in the battle to be good, you have to focus on your innate desire to be good. Remind yourself each morning that you want to be good, and don’t let that consciousness lay fallow. Make it part of your mindset, and you’ll see an observable effect throughout your day. You’ll make more mature and effective decisions.